It’s never been like that for me. It’s always felt like loads of work.
But still, after the work has been done the change still
happens
in
the
moment.
So I can’t tell you how long it will take to find your authentic voice.
I can’t say how long it will take to find a voice that represents who you truly are.
it might happen in the moment, or
it might take ages.
That’s been how it was
Finding my voice.
It took ages.
and
(this is the crappy fact with work on healing and uncovering and being brave and facing the world
in a way that says
I’m here and I’m sick of hiding
of pretending to be something I’m not
No more pretending
This is hard work.
It may never happen.
You may never truly feel at ease in yourself.
The work we do
(the work I’ve done at least)
with healers
is hard.
It’s the hardest work you’ll ever do.
But if you don’t do it,
if you are someone who feels not quite right
in this place
in this world
in this lifetime,
you will never feel it.
Unless you do the work
If you do then you might,
(and more than likely,
you will) have moment when you do.
If you don’t try
you almost certainly won’t find it.*
My Journey – Finding My Voice
All I know is that before I tried to do this work
I didn’t feel at home in the world
I didn’t feel at home in my body.
I was constantly dashing about to avoid being present with myself.
now I do sometimes.
feel at home with myself.
not all of the time
heck no one is perfect
but it’s better now.
I am less afraid to say no.
to call out the things that are challenging to me.
and every time I do it’s hard.
it’s scary
I’m scared I will be judged and deemed a
piece of crap.
but I have to do this because otherwise
life isn’t worth shit.
and life has to be worth shit.
and more than shit.
life has to be worth something.
and that is why we need to do the work.
if you want to do the work on your voice
on finding a voice that represents who you really are
in all of your wonderful
weird and painful
facets
if you want to shout in the face of the world
this is me
this is me motherfuckers
I’m here and I’m not ashamed
I’m not perfect
(perfect is boring
very quickly and forever more after)
I’m not perfect but I’m here.
This is me Finding my voice
(I didn’t know where this was going to take me but I find myself with I’m Here from the Color Purple.
I’ll copy the lyrics below.)
Work With Me To Find Your Voice
If you want to work with me to free your authentic voice get in touch.
I can work with sung or spoken voices.
The work we do will be unique to you.
If enough people get in touch I will start running workshops
I might even run them online. Which feels wild.
So if you want to know more get in touch.
This is me being bold and not hiding any more.
- I know many people who find this eureka moment from massive adversity. From health scares etc. I have also known just as many for whom a health scare makes them think even smaller. Who makes them even more afraid of the world. Don’t wait for rock bottom before you do the things you want to do.
VIDEO OF CYNTHIA – Watch this. She’s AMAZING
The Lyrics to the song that I’ve shared above
(The bit that doesn’t really relate to what I’m saying)
I don’t need you to love me
I don’t need you to love
I’ve got
I’ve got
I’ve got my sister
I can feel her now
She may not be here, but she’s still mine
I know she still love me
Got my children
I can’t hold them now
They may not be here, but they still mine
I hope they know I still love them
Got my house
It still keeps the cold out
Got my chair
When my body can’t hold out
Got my hands
Doin’ good like they supposed to
Showin’ my heart
To the folks that I’m close to
Got my eyes
Though they don’t see as far now
They see more ’bout how things
Really are now
The bit that does relate
I’m gonna take a deep breath
Gonna hold my head up
Gonna put my shoulders back
And look you straight in the eye
I’m gonna flirt with somebody
When they walk by
I’m gonna sing out
Sing out
I believe I have inside of me
Everything that I need to live a bountiful life
And all the love alive in me
I’ll stand as tall as the tallest tree
And I’m thankful for every day that I’m given
Both the easy and hard ones I’m livin’
But most of all
I’m thankful for loving who I really am
I’m beautiful
Yes, I’m beautiful
And I’m here
(I saw Cynthia perform this role at the Menier Chocolate Factory in London. It was pretty amazing).
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